sadness

Being engaged to a man in the army was rough, but yet I was learing what he was going through.
The struggles and sacrifices made and promised werent easy. Trying to understand his pain and promise to be behind and support him as we made big life plans. Then, a bomb was dropped outta knowhere. Suddenly me and my kids were known to him as a stresser and that it would be better if he stoped seeing me and called off engagement. Not knowing where this came from, my heart sank. H emade me change alot of thin gs and promised my children much more. Then he changes his mind and says to try this. Not only a few weeks after, he says he is done and that he was seriuos this time and didnt care. He had said the worst things about my kids and that he didnt care what happened to us. He almost caused us to go homeless. Yet he comes home this mon th and said he wanted to see me. he broke my heart and let my kids down. you would think that people in the service would want and strive to have a soul mate behind them, especially if you have already made life plans and being engaged. But to say things that shouldnt be said or done ever, promises broken and to never deseerve to be treated like that. Being strong and deserving is what i am. Living life day by day head up!